What I Have Control Over

I have made strides on my healing journey over the last 2 weeks. After a hysterectomy earlier this year, breaking my foot 3 months later, and being in a boot for 13 weeks, I decided it was time I found something to feel in control of.

I made the decision to switch doctors. The doctor I saw told me to get out of the boot and into a shoe. His recommendation was if it stays the same or gets better it’s healing. If it’s worse come back to him. I can proudly say I don’t think I have to see him again!

I started physical therapy and I am becoming stronger each day. Everyday I wake up and make the choice to do the exercises. I am hopeful that my foot is healing, finally!

With the cards I was dealt I made the choice not to judge myself due to not being able to go for walks or be as active as I was prior to surgery. I wallowed. I think I needed this time of wallowing to help me get in the headspace of being ready to make some big changes.

I began Weight Watchers 2 weeks ago and lost 5 1/2 lbs. Weight Watchers has allowed me to be mindful about what I am putting in my body. I am looking at food as a way to fuel my body. Previously I looked at food as a way to join me in loathing my body. I am hopeful that I will love my body for the vessel it is. I am beginning to.

Throughout this journey I have been to an amazing therapist that has helped me process and understand the root of my anxieties and the loss of control. I am excited for the last part of 2022 and have plans for 2023 to be my year. I will keep you all updated!